running these shifty words
in my head
over, over
'safety'
'acceptance'
'comfort'
I ease out feelings
using lungs, rising
to soothe
belly constricted
You use the same card
I threw
the card I am trying to forcefully out
as I breathe
I let the feelings that scare me
engage
St Augustine mumbles something to me
and I write a simple prayer
taking in my own fraternal dark
giving way for care of that place
drawn moves presenting
open, close
you infer yourself
show me my fellow
I call you 'sex kitten'
aquainting a region of heart's work
with itself
oh this good girl bullshit
all the things I could say with a look
and still pretend
'who me?'
the close-fitting persona
crafted to look thoughtless
all while each detail is contained
in it's show
slightly disheveled
a blueprint saying I'm 'Okay'
with cursive letters
written in leaking ink
saying
'I'm not,
please see'
attend to that heart region
let it dilate
breaking character
dissecting peace
'peace I give you
peace be with you'
I bring it home
granting clemency
