he held my hand so tightly today

mind out of focus

lost in words 

sometimes syllables are even lost

yet when I look in his eyes 

we connect

he is soaking up love

you see his deepest need

it is exposed

what a beautiful side to see

he held my hand so tightly today

as if to say

"I am not going anywhere"

and

"please don't leave"

I believe children arrive connected to God

today I saw him 

connect that same way

like they were resting in each others arms

'I saw him come so close to God

I saw God come so close to him'

I have seen this before 

so I watched for it 

and when he was close

I listened to every rambling word

a bit of heaven 

resting in each word

like the dna of each word was a puffy cloud

I am paying attention 

it is the purest love 

between father and daughter

I am feeling it all

wide open 

here I am dad

thank you for letting me be affectionate with you today 

I know it calms you 

helps you rest 

I love you

I am learning to let you go